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1.
Though I'm not with you I can see you just as you are Thirteen, silent, sweet, and see-through Always in my heart But every echo torn asunder On and on and on Mommy, Daddy, Sister, Brother Everyone's gone And I know Everything I've loved and lost Beyond my control I can't save it I can't take it But I cannot I cannot let it go
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Press your palms together and tremble, but don't speak Your mother breaking under the color in her cheeks The bed sheets white and tall, chiseled in to keep Limbs at strange angles, sprawled, sinking deep (so deep) Press your palms together and tremble, but don't speak Your father tearing as you whisper from your knees And the lights out in the hall cannot hear you scream But when the last stroke falls, I'll kiss you where you bleed And I'll take you in my arms I will fold you in my arms Until your eyes circle in silence To the love where you belong
3.
Evvy, I'm trying to meet you where you are now 'Cause you're beautiful and bruised And how you stumble through and through And I know we're dying There's nothing left to do but give each other our own hearts An unbelieving love in signals pulled apart Evvy, your soul gleams beyond the ruined boundaries I will raze to overcome For you in me and us in one So sad and so lonely To know the bleeding feel of penetrating fingertips But no remembrance of the warmth of your lost lips Take your pain and save it for me And with my fingers on your cheek With my fingers on your cheek I will catch every tear I'll be all the rings enveloping What you never dared to dream (With your arms around me, we release And this life is everything beyond everything)
4.
Mother, I walk through glass hallways Your footsteps sweep, your eyes are falling And everything that you can't see Let me linger on your hip softly in between 'Cause I won't let you be forgotten Brother, please, hand in hand we'll be With your blood transfused, with it flowing through me And if you're going away, won't you writhe and sigh With your breath upon the window, with my love held high 'Cause I won't let you forgotten No, I won't let you be forgotten 'Cause I know I know That Daddy's skin is rotting That Daddy's skin is rotting That Daddy's skin is rotting
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Your white braceleted wrist Your skin soft and sun-kissed So pretty when you dream When the blush pervades your cheek And you won't tell just how long You pressed yourself on and on To feel everything With your fingers beckoning But you know Daddy's face fades The streets open in great parades And Sister, we were one In the silence come and gone But I slip straight, full ache Throbbing blood I penetrate My life all leaking out 'Cause Mommy put our future down But you know Though I have failed you, it's not too late To set the locks aligned, to heal the hate To where the heirloom sleeps in my mind The light between the cracked rays of your eyes
7.
Softly Your eyes belie the tempo metronomically So if it's all you've ever known Then blister to your wrist with God, please How time splits our lives like ruined boundaries But if there's nothing to my soul Why wait to be released Silent turn and smile to go
8.
Evvy, if I could reach you I would be everything for you The hours you spent alone, defenseless I want to be the one on whom the terror falls And the punishment is done So let me feel, 'cause I'm empty as I am What time won't heal 'Til it ends where we began The distance between the words I say and the love I mean When your eyes are pained and full And your memory bursts fire through my skull And I've writhed and crawled but got nowhere at all A light toward God An innocence that falls But I want to be you To save you from your desperate pain Make Daddy realize the sick distortions of his brain Be there in the dark with you Our bodies only bones I will share my own heart with you And fill all your warm and gentle holes And you'd never be alone You'd never be alone But Evvy, I love you so much Beyond your voice I'll never hear, your face I'll never touch
9.
April passes through Golden West Avenue Your memory in me leaves me soft and bruised And we will overflow as each internal anthem grows To fortify release, to stagger under hope And if they don't understand, don't be afraid, don't be ashamed Just take my hand, and I will save all your pain And if they don't understand, what difference does it make When the beauty that you see is more than everything The glass around your heart falls and fills my blood with shards The rays between your eyes cracking in the dark A pre-eternal light, a beautiful cascading sight Adoring as we weep and wash ourselves in white And if they don't understand (etc.) And if you can't make a sound, my love Put your arms around me in fear and trust And we won't make a sound, my love 'Cause in our hearts we've found the silence is enough
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Mother, can you hear me call Through the plaster of the wall Out into the hallway light Daddy closed his eyes and clenched His finger 'til the trigger bent And tore his spirit into flight So won't you please open the door 'Cause where there's love there's love before So come embrace me, frail and white Until the mold deteriorates And all we've known destined to break And I can see, but I cannot speak So I watch, I weep in apology Brother, won't you turn and smile The blood in your white eyes awhile A waiting pool to be transfused And we have left our bodies back In the room with all we had To watch our skin grow soft and bruised And I would give all hope up To make you see that it's enough To be alive right here with you And oh please, God, won't you take To my heart and stow away The blinding scenes, braceleted dreams Shudders to be held high, released 'Cause I know But And you will find, tears in your eyes And love in mine, all of your life All of your life, all of your life Evvy, if I could tell you one thing I know it seems this pain is all that's in your life But I'll be, with all that's in me, everything To bring you just one moment of respite And when we sense it passing . . . A silent flicker out of sight

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("I know: to watch the pain of those we love is harder than to bear our own. Here I must stand and watch the sufferings of my dear ones — the heartaches, sicknesses, and grief of those I love.

And I must let them watch mine.")

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EVVY is the third LP from Heidi Klum's Bangs.

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All songs written by Zach Beck. All songs composed by Zach Beck and Dylan Beck. All songs mixed and mastered by Dylan Beck. All words written by Zach Beck. Recorded from April 2018 to April 2019 at Chase Court, the Market Dimly Lit, the Puppy Palace, the Meow Treehouse, and South Palisades Repository and Day Spa. Mixed from December 2018 to April 2019 at Chase Court and the Market Dimly Lit. Shout out to Riley. Shout out to Dalton. Shout out to Bonobo. One last "whoo-hoo!" for the Dalton. Love you, Fatty. Love you, Beanie. Love you, Pepper. Love you, Kit Kat. Love you, Gwen. Love you, Eve. Cheers to the marimba. Cheers to the orchestral bells. I've never seen so many electric jellyfish in all my life. Inertia is a property of matter.

(for: M, D, J, B, D, N, MP, KU)

Patience. Belief. Love.

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released May 17, 2019

Zach Beck -- voice, trumpet, guitar, keys, piano, backing vocals, noise, feedback, transitions, the silent flicker out of sight

Dylan Beck -- drums, bass guitar, Fender Duo-Sonic, piano, keys, synths, orchestral bells, noise, drone, backing vocals, production, mixing, mastering, photography, cover artwork

Michelle Pellegrino -- photography

Kelsey Thurman -- additional artwork

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Heidi Klum's Bangs Springfield, Missouri

Patience. Belief. Love.

We are brothers Zach and Dylan Beck.

Heidi Klum's Bangs began as a bedroom psych folk project in early 2009 and soon evolved into a full-on, multi-instrumental indie rock act in the vein of Neutral Milk Hotel, Circulatory System, Beirut, and Sufjan Stevens.

With our ethereal instrumentals and stream-of-consciousness lyrics, we create a musical universe unlike any.
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